I have a really hard time being happy where I am. Even when I am achieving a measure of satisfaction, I miss what is going on around me. I have a “stop and smell the roses” deficiency. I have been reading a book by Donna Otto called Finding Your Purpose as a Mom and she challenges her readers to begin two files: one called Present Contentment and one called Future Hope. I would love to learn how to savor where I am. How to really experience now and especially to enjoy my children as they are. But I have all of these plans and Ideas for things I want to do and be. I felt a lot of freedom from Otto’s encouragement to write those things down, save those articles and ideas for when the time is right. I have no problem being defined as someone’s mom, but I don’t want my brain to shut down.
http://www.homemakersbychoice.org/FindingYourPurpose.html
